Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Attack of the Anxious Kind
How does this happen? it happens so quickly. I am mosing along, meeting my time restraints...getting things done then
Wham Bam Thank you Mam....
It's like the body snatchers have come. I excused myself from my desk with the beautiful view of outside and walked to Ideal Market and bought some trail mix (super fattening) and a Huge Ass Hazelnut Chocolate bar. It did not help because now, along with anxiety I have a tummy ache.
My Xanax is at home
I know where it started. I have been looking for a patio/meditation space idea in the blogs. As I click through them I realize how much other people are doing. Synda has pointed out more than once that these people are only noting the best days of their artistic days and I should not feel like a loser. Yeah...Not a loser.
Then I think about how I want to go to Yoga, but there is no time. How I have projects I'd like to enjoy before the close of summer and it's all ready mid JUNE!!!!!!!!!
Stop it brain (see this is crazy people talk)
Stop thinking...stop dreaming....
Stop list making behind my frontal lobe.
I have a job interview tomorrow.
Another thing to schedule into my life, and if I get the job, another time slot I need to make room for.
all I really want to do is be a stay at home mom with cash and the ability to sew,knit, garden,cook (if I knew how), and drink beer....and maybe run around the block a few times.
shew...glad I got all that out of my system.
at 1:08 PM