For 4 years I have talked about how when I graduate and am an RN I am going to treat myself to a real grown up car. Not a crap car, not a practical car; a real grown up car.
Something the kids don't fit in.
I have 5 weeks til I graduate and I honestly have really been thinking about how things may change. I have been "visualizing the big picture". Summer is almost here, I won't be paying for daycare (175$/mo). I won't be paying for kindergarten(265$/mo). If I get a job as an RN my pay should about double, and I only carry about 4K$ in debt for the entire household. We have no car payments (paid off) and the only thing we really pay is Mortgage.
A new car for me seems justifiable...NO? I have worked hard working 2 or 3 jobs at a time. Juggling school, family, household and scheduling so as not to interfere with "other's" schedules. Often working 12 hour shifts at night so the kids can get to school with no problems or upsets.
Last week when Bobby emailed me that his truck broke down and it was going to cost 6500$ to fix my heart broke. I thought to myself, "Is this some sort of marriage test? Because I will kill him." Nope. So I didn't panic. I said it's ok...my credit score is awesome (850 if you must know) I'm sure we can get a used car from the bank, a repo.
I go through the list and find some cars under 8K. fine cars, sporty cars, new looking 40 miles to the gallon cars!!! But he refused. He wanted a car HE wanted.
So, I shut up.
I have learned to stop bitching...except to you, my personal life coaches.
He didn't negotiate a price. He said it was under sticker price. (as it should be, it's a used crap Dodge something or another)
he didn't keep the price under 300$/mo
He made me drive an hour to sign papers for a loan for a car that isn't mine.
he got this: Tried to tell me its like a station wagon....( i don't want a station wagon)
So for the next 72 months (yeah, you heard over 300$/mo for that amount of time...you do the math) I am locked into making a payment.
I could have had another kid.
Maybe a vacation?
Maybe a car...for me and achieving my goals, by myeslf, for myself and this family.