"Do you think this is the life I wanted when I chose to move here?"
Uhhh, let me take an educated guess...no.
Well, honestly, this is not exactly the fucking Partridge Family to me either.
Don't say anything you cant take back....don't say it. Bite your tongue.
For once my tongue has been bitten. I will let everyone decide their fates.
You can't always be right, you can't always be happy, and you sure as shit can't always control what everyone else is doing. The saddest most embarrassing part is dealing with a teenager who is constantly giving you the middle finger. Bless his little heart. Is this what I had thought would happen with my first born? hell no. I still dream of first dates and kids filling the basement, proms, and family vacations of fun. Not exactly what is going on here right now.
I bite my tongue when my parent friends exclaim the intelligence of their children and the beauty and joy they bring. The scholarships and college interviews. The pictures of their teens sitting behind the wheel of their first car, so happy and ready to move forward with adulthood....everyone on the same page...stressful but joyful.
The Ex rails me me with his passive aggressive parenting and blame game. "It's your fault....it was YOUR decision...not mine." "This is your fault."
That is fine with me. I'll take the blame, but if that is the case , get the hell out of the way and let me deal with it. Not your way of dealing: " here, did your mom tell you there will be no more Internet? Oh she said until your grades are a B avg. ?What a Bitch, let me get you this phone, I'll pay for it and here's a new iPad, just in case the computer won't work. "
Hey jack ass, our kid needs a job, a car and some help getting his grades up....how about forking over some dough for a tutor?
How about for once, instead of saying " that is what I pay you for"...you do something. How about you be a father instead of a playmate? How about as they say...STEP UP TO THE PLATE.
The teen had a job...he got fired. pretty awesome ,huh? 17 and all ready cant keep a job, all because he didn't feel like going and his dad said if he wasn't working every weekend he would take him snowboarding , but he seems to work all the time....here's a good thought . Just don't go to work, go snowboarding and hope they don't really care. Yeah, how did that work out?
Almost horrifying to watch .
I'm losing my relationships due to not being able to handle all this. I've all ready lost the man who used to make me laugh. Nobody wants to be second or third. I know I sure as heck don't , yet some how I have become last.
Isolated in a messed up home I designed all by myself.
This design is not working for me....
I'm investing in a wrecking ball...
so prepare yourself