I have been a bit absent due to the circumstances of breast illness and stress. I would like to happily report that I was finally able to have my "breast sparing lumpectomy" on 4/30. I was very nervous seeing how this was my very first surgery. I had kept all this information to myself for a few months now and was emotionally ready to find out the answer.
I arrived at the hospital at 7 am to prepare for the placement of the wire into my breast. this is called a wire guided stereo mammogram. The Dr. uses mammogram to place a wire into your breast up to the titanium chip which marks the cancerous area. To me, it wasn't bad. they give you some lidocaine and you drop your boob into a hole onto a table and they work from below. I felt as long as I didn't think too much about it I was fine. When he is done they take your for a soft mammogram (no such thing) to make sure the wire is in the right place then off to the pre-surgery area. When I arrived into pre-surgery my blood pressure was up to the 150s ,which is unusual for me. I was so scared. As they started setting me up I just started blubbering like an idiot and the RNs stood there aghast. " its ok.. its ok, we are going to take care of you. You wont feel anything" I knew all this but the emotion just poured out. I was finally able to get my shit together and crack a few jokes and they felt it was safe enough to leave me in the tiny room to watch TV and relax.
45 minutes later I had signed all consents, spoke to the surgeon and then the Anesthesiologist. He was great, told me everything he was going to do and all was well in the world.
Next thing I remember was him saying, " do you feel that?" Feel what...? the burning in my IV? and he says , "yup. " with a big smile and I remember the oxygen mask coming towards me and hearing him laugh and saying, " nighty night, Red".
I woke up an hour or so later in recovery. I had no nausea, was thirsty, but no pain. I sat around there for a while then was sent home.
I felt great. no pain...no nausea....no pain. they had placed a Scopolamine patch behind my ear for the nausea and it worked wonders.
I was to leave everything in place and wear a big booby binder for 72 hours.
day 3 i removed the binder. not bad.
the lump they removed was about 2"x3" so my one breast was smaller and sitting up a little higher from the swelling and where she stitched me up. I really couldn't complain. the only stupid thing I did was remove the patch from behind my ear thinking I was fine and for 3 days I was unable to eat with my stomach rolling. no puking...just uncomfortable.
9 o'clock stitch from armpit to nipple. could be worse.
Monday 5/5 : I received my results after a long 6 days of waiting. The Surgeon was able to remove the mass with no cancer left behind. or what they call clean margins. no other cancerous cells found.
I was so excited. yet the strange thing was it hasn't eased my mind. not sure if this is normal. I woke up last night with chest pain and was afraid I was having a heart attack. I'm sure it was anxiety, seeing as I am still alive this afternoon. But I'm still a nervous wreck.
I go back for my checkup tomorrow.
I am hoping I am not having a heart attack
and I am off work for another week or so, but with not much energy to do anything.
Alls good in boobsville for now