Livin' la vida Loca

It's Friday and another week has seemed to have passed by without much excitement. I can't decide if this is a good thing or a bad thing. What I can decide is that it is often somewhat unsettling for me to be constantly in flux. Am I really in between things or am I actually just living life?

I used to say,"When I get older." At some point I realized that I am older and I'm missing out on life by waiting for something "big and better" to start happening.

It is happening...it's called living life. novel idea, huh?

One of my goals this year was to start really living life, yet I haven't quite figured out how. Does it start with small little spurts of life and then KabAAaaam! You are living it? Does it need to be exciting?...or just rewarding? Right now I haven't quite mastered either one of those. Do I need to take up a hobby, or let a few go?

I plan to set a few goals...more than just toning up...i think I need to tone up my life, not just my ass. I have a couple of ideas.
1. I need to find something that is helpful to others...
2. I want to plan a secret vacation for Booby and I
3. I want to go away with the girls one weekend without guilt.
4. I want to start riding my motorcycle again (without fear)

Life is what you make of it (not quite sure how many times I can tell myself this) so I need to start making it. Starting is the hardest part for most people but finding the starting point may be even harder for me.

good bye Lux...my savior...xoxox

Lux Interior...
You and Mr Lydon were my saviors in school...
I hope your life above or below is all it should be.

he IS still Alive...and

Possibly reincarnated...except Clint isn't dead... I don't, care I love them both. LOOOOVVVEEE

Thanks freak

Hey, thanks Pseudo Stripper Broad for squishing up against me the other night at Scott Weiland. I asked people around me...it wasn't just me who thought the fact you were licking your boob sweat and inappropriately touching yourself was totally gross...but also the fact you were moaning so loud we could barely hear Scott ...was just....I don't know...yuk.

not sexy....no matter what you think you look like.

thanks for ruining my Xmas Present...
(if I don't stand behind the Amazons...I'm stuck next to the freaks)

Visualizing

I've been visualizing...
I have 120 days until my vacation. I can do it. The biggest loser does it in 90 days, if even that.
So, I'm thinking getting a 5'2' body down to 107 # is feasible.

of course I don't have my own airbrusher....but I can do this.
My letter from the "Universe" said to me this morning
"Keep visualizing, M, keep visualizing"

Along with my thoughts I have tried to pick up my workouts.
I did my hot yoga Sunday.
Actually made myself a bit sick when I was laying down in Vinyase and all I could smell was Nachos. If that wasn't a sign to stop stuffing my little trap with cheese I don't know what is.
Visualize, M...

I am trying to eat more protein and do my cardio and strength. I think I really need to pump up the cardio to 5 days a week, but my schedule doesn't allow it right now, unless I can squeeze it in at work....

I'm going to take a picture of myself so that I can do a comparison, scary huh?

Tonight I have school then we are off to see my other boyfriend, Scott Weiland, play in Denver.

xoxox
m