I have so much anxiety I am freaking out. I know that doesn't make sense but I can't move forward I just sit here. I'm feeling very hateful and very overwhelmed. As I sit I realize how I have wasted my life. How I haven't completed things I should have. How I yelled at my kid last night to no end, for stupid shit.
What is wrong with me? Everything and nothing.
I have been drinking more than I should. I have not been eating like I should and I have quit sleeping. I have quit cleaning. I have quit doing anything.
I dread going to work.
I cry on the inside....I try not to look unhappy, but my skin is sallow and my hair is falling out.
I was told to make a vision board
I looked at some on Pintrest then realized it was too much...what if I make one the. Never accomplish a god damn thing on it.
I stopped going to yoga, I stopped working out....when my head gets too full I run, but always with fear of running too far and not making it back.
Very few have checked on me. Life goes on.
Spring is here. My favorite season and I just want to curl up in a ball and die
M
2 comments:
I'm checking in <3.
So... I stumbled across your blog... I relate to SO MUCH.
What's the update on the biopsy? How's the anxiety? How's the boy? Most of all...HOW ARE YOU????
I would love to see a new post. Your writing style is the BEST. even when life sucks.
I hope you are well and happy
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