I just have to laugh...seriously....How long can this divorce last!???
papers have been filed....now I have to wait before I can buy house, buy a car, remove him from my insurance, shit....I can't even rent anything at this point.
it's insane.....but. whatever. It is going to be fine. But a year and a half for a divorce between 2 people who really have nothing is ridiculous. We have spent more in lawyer fees than we probably make in a year. Because of him. I'll leave that there. I was willing to give him half of everything, the house ....etc....but he fought it.
whatever.
So, here I am.
waiting still
I have said this a million times. I laugh that it seems so simple
I just want to live and be happy. I want to laugh and take care of the people in my life.
I want to have abs,
I want to have a house in CR...
I want to have sex, good sex,
I want my kids to be happy,
I want my ex lovers to see my beauty....
I want to travel,
I want to be able to ride a gravel bike with my friends ...and not die....
Soon. soon they say.
I dont want to buy a 450k house, (which still needs updated)
because that is all that is available....
I'd rather live in a shack in CR
I dont want to rent
I want my kid to be happy
I want my lover to be happy
I want my friends to still love me
I don't want people to say "wow that was fast"
because....
it was not fast. it was miserably slow. 10 years of the 19 were mostly sad, and self deprecating, and not living life to my fullest. so ,NO ! it wasn't fast. Shut your mouth. Let me live ...
ok....
my rant for the night.
xo,
m