it's Friday!!!!

Supah Stahs
Synda sent this to me this morning....
Olive and Ryland

all righty, another week down....YESSSS. Slept in a bit this morning because Ilin came with me to work...he's going snowboarding with his Aunt Dana and I didn't think it would be right to get him up at 245 am :)

Last night I went to Synda's to work on some knitting. I think we got a few good ideas for some goofy projects. Try to incorporate some other stuff into the knitting. We'll see how it goes. I widh I had more time to knit, but right now I don't.

Made it though both tests yesterday. I know I made a 90 or 91 on my pharm. test and I hope I did ok on the Med Surg. I'm guessing I passed (c), at least...at this point it really is about getting to the next level. I have some homework this weekend along with working. Let's see....one paper on Black-American food culture, finish my Cephalexin CTE, do something with K+, Na and something else? Lord...and then I'm done, well after I study.

I think Bobby picked up the primer for the "guest room" ie the dungeon downstairs. So that is on my list. and I MUST RUN if I'm going to do that race.

This afternoon is girls meeting afterwork, it will be nice to sit down and catch up with everybody. I heard Sara has a new BF and Anissa is getting to go on her vacation to NY, Titsy joined 24 HOUR Fitness for her next level of "the biggest loser" , and I'm sure Cathy has something exciting to tell us.

Well best get to work.

The 4 am post....

It's so quiet at the hospital at 345 am. The halls are empty and it is like a big cave. I always come in the through the ER doors and say HI to the admissions girls and they always have that look like they have surfed the entire internet and are drained of all brain power. I then walk toward ICU to clock in. This morning there was a person sleeping on the couch with Martha Stewart playing on the TV. They looked uncomfortable and I wished I could turn off all the lights for them, but they are programed to stay on. I'm sure the comfiness of the couch was the least of their worries. After I clock in I wonder down the hall past the coffee cart, past the quiet OR's and to my dark office...When I get in, I often want to just curl up and go back to sleep...but I don't have a pillow. I am going to put this on my list.

Sundays Schedule

So, Synda, we need to figure out a knitting time. I have 2 tests this week and my school schedule changed because I start CLINICALS...you guys better cross your fingers I don't kill anyone, or freak out.

Today is Sunday...and it's supposed to be nicer today...almost 60 so my goal is to run my 4 miles...try to cook some food for the week, study,do laundry and hang it on the line then at 3 we are to go to Jimmy and Leslies. Full schedule. I'm going to try not to grocery shop this week to save a bit of money. Eat what's in the fridge.

My knitting project I started are little double yarn arm bands with a star on them for Ilin. He picked them out, and I'm almost done with one of them.

Synda, make sure you take progress pictures of your stuff for the book...you know as you do things. just put them in a file then we can go thru everything later. My camera isn't working as fabulously as it should be, but oh well.

Talk to everyone later

xo

m

The Sweater

here's the sweater...did it without a pattern...

the sleeves are funky..tried to make Bell sleeves but didn't Bell them enough...I'm gonna put a crochet edge on them, when I meet up with synda so she can help fix it.

Doesn't matter...Olive loves it!

unlocking your inner voyeur

I'm sure I've said this before, but I'll say it again,.......I'm a voyeur!!! I admit it! Sometimes I come to work, to do work,but instead I voyeur (if you can use this as a verb).

It usually starts quite innocently, then before you know it I have wasted 5 hours clicking thru blogs from people in Ecuador or Japan. I can't control myself when the little button at the top of the screen says "next blog". (go try it when you are done reading this) I look at other people's art projects, their poetry, pictures, family rants, even accidentally came across someones Kama Sutra how to pictures...note: be prepared to click quickly if you are at work, you never know what the next page holds, there is NO warnings.

I have always been like this, interested in others lives or secrets. I gave one of my secrets to a girl at work one day when she was really down in the dumps.

I said," you know what will cheer you up?"
She reluctantly said ,"What?"
"Go here, www.bch.org and click on the nursery page....
pick any day, any name and look...i swear to God you won't be able to do just one, unless there truely is something wrong with you....and if that's the case, call me back; I'll think of something else."

Well, about 25 minutes later she called me from her desk and when I picked up the phone, this is what I got

"I truely hate you."
"I have work to do and now I can't quit smiling or clicking to look at every day and every god awful outfit they subject these wee ones to!"

I know, it's minute, but it does make me happy...and my secret gang of baby spies....I actually got a call from the same girl yesterday when she knew I was having a bad day, she said ,

"I think the nursery is BROKE!!!!!" I can't get IN!!!!!"

Which of course made ME stop doing my work and head to the secret website to see if I could get in....thank god we figured it out and spent the next 40 minutes clicking thru February.

Now that is a true friend. Truely....

It goes on, I'm sure if I didn't think someone would know, I would try to click into peoples private lives. I have always wanted to look at the Tommy Lee/Pam Anderson video...but what if I can't stop? So I don't look at that type of stuff....not because I don't want to, but because I would be trying to see what they had for furniture, what was on their book shelf, what type of drinks they are drinking....you know the normal stuff.

I love that people like this http://needleworksinc.blogspot.com/ take the time to take pictures and post them....just for me...isn't it pretty?

Well, if you come across and nice voyeur topics...send them my way.
back to work.

xo
m

downfall of mankind in my eyes

Just want everyone know that I am one of the most positive people around.....BUT...I am losing faith. Tuesday, I left my iPod in the "fitstop", which is our gym at the hospital. Its a private gym and you have to use your clock in picture ID to get in. Anyways, I left it in there around 430 am...figured out I left it there, went back down at 830 or so, and it was gone! Which is fine, but I would have thought someone would have returned it to Lost and Found...wouldn't you?

I mean after all it is only my fellow employees, fellow employees who are doctors, nurses and caregivers. It has my kids pictures on it and crappy music. It's the one nice thing I had.

Maybe it will turn up?
I'll keep you posted

how my days have been feeling

Didi sent me this...I hope she doesn't think it's real. It says taken in S. Africa and that's the Golden Gate Bridge. Hahahaha.
I't a cool picture and it sums up the way some of my days have been going. Only difference is ...No one throws me a ladder.

It's Tuesday Morning and I'm here early so that I can run and try to get a little energy flowing. Get my Chi a'movin...or whatever it is called.

Michelle asked me to run the ST. Patricks Race with her, but it's a 6k. Haven't done one of those before, so I felt I better start training since it is a month a way. I can do it. As long as it isn't cold. I hate running in the cold.

School is going well. We start clinicals in a couple of weeks and we are all hoping we are ready. We have one teacher that is a bit out of it and keeps telling us "it's not on the test" . Well, Lady, I could give a shit less if it is on YOUR test...Is it on the NCLEX? Do we NEED to know it!? Who knows? It's all such a crap shoot.

I also, started going thru my calendar and noticed Becky (Daycare) is closed 2 days. One I can probably ask off for the other Bobby will have to ask off. I hate it because it screw up my entire work schedule. Oh well, naybe I'll just realx and enjoy the day off. Right?

I'm going to go run...Try to get a 4 mile in...and get down there before that good lookin guy is there and sees my all redfaced and sweaty. I like to run in Solitude...with the FOOD network blasting.

Knitting Renegade Woes

I was sitting here doing my work then I started thinking, which is never good at work. Sometimes, ok, well most of the time, I do things so nutty. I was thinking how Synda is soooo good at her knitting. She follows the patterns and gets things done so quickly. She does tell me she "frogs" a lot, but I think she just says that to make me feel better. I started my Sweater for Olive with no pattern...like a renegade knitter, just thinking, "I'll figure it out". Well, what I figured out is that I needed a book. So that is where I went...to get a book to answer/fix all my sweater problems. HAHAHAHA
Well, I got the book, found a cute sweater, then realized i had to figure out how to make the sweater I liked into the 4 year old 4T size I had all ready started. Talk about "winging it". I told Synda that I promise I will follow a pattern from now on, or at least write down what I am doing so that I can redo it ....or better yet, get the sleeves the same size. See, this is why Synda and I are friends...she understands that I don't always go by the "pattern" .

xo
m

VD mmmmmm

Valentines came and went. good :0)

When I went out to scrape the foot of snow off the car yesterday there was a little box. Momentarily, I thought it may be a Ring. nope, it was a journey pendant. It was nice, especially because I didn't expect anything. Sometimes he does surprise me.

So Synda and I are working on a book. We have set our goal for End of summer to have the stuff together and then we can start laying it out. I think the hardest part is probably starting. We have great ideas, just need to get them on paper! I'll keep you posted.

Yesterday, was all the tests. I did ok. Passed them all with B's and one A, but truely the grade doesn't matter (as long as it is a C or better), it's making sure I learn and understand what they are teaching. I want to KNOW this stuff...not just memorize it.

Today I got to work at 4am then ran on the treadmill for 3.5miles and then got ready for work. I promised myself I would take the time for taking care of myself and doing something I want to do at least one day a week. I have been able to stick to the exercising it's been harder to work on my arts...but I continue to pencil in the time.

I'm glad that the weekend is here. 9 more hours of work today then home to relax.
have a great weekend

Tests...

Got my new shoes for school.
aren't they lovely?
Not quite the fashion statement I was hoping for, but they will do.

I so did not want to get up this morning. The alarm actually went off, which never happens. I got up and came to this second home I call work. I need to study and I can't decide if I want to work out this morning....I'll Dwell on it for a while.

I'm feeling a bit lonely lately. I don't know how I have time to feel lonely, but I do. Maybe it's because I haven't seen Bobby in a while. I mean I see him everyday...just no connection. it's makes for a somewhat lonely independant living.

Today I have a test, tomorrow I have 2 tests and I need to work on my assessment video. ARRGH.!!! Friday night, I think we are dying hair (the girls, that is, since I all ready did mine), then Saturday I have to work and at 10 am hair appointment....Lord only knows how I have time for that!

Bobby has practice tonight, so maybe I will feed the kids early and go to bed early. try to get an extra few hours of sleep.

Weekend of busy-ness

Boys at the party with their fake teeth

(left is Ilin)

Olive and her fake teeth

Olive and Zoey....so cute

We had Ilin's Bday party this weekend. At first I was worried no one was showing up, then, a little late, 8 out of the 10 showed up. They did the climbing wall, ate pizza, then swam...it was all done by 530. Ilin's dad decided to show up and gave me half the cost, so that was a plus. He also brought Robin and Zoey...which Olive was so excited about. Zoey has lost all of her hair and is on steroids so she looks like a little round cupcake, absolutely adorable.

So, my dear friend Jenny has been contemplating a career change. I am all for change, as stressful as it is, especially to ensure a future with some $$ stability. Money does not buy happiness but it surely makes life a bit easier. She is thinking about an RN program. I think it's a good idea, even though the wait-list is a bit long (maybe she can avoid that) at least with a RN degree you have options and guarantee of work, unless you choose not to work. Jenny, Spring is the time for change.

This morning I kept waking up every 10 minutes...drove me nuts, finally I just got up and came to work. Clocked in at 345 am, did some work then went down to the Gym to run for 3.2miles. That's the one good thing about coming in so early. I feel justified in running in the morning. I ate my bowl of oatmeal choked down my 2nd huge glass of coffee and am now going to finish my work. I have my first class at 830 am then I'm done at 415. One big test today. cross your fingers for me.

School Blues

So, Yesterday it happened.
I broke down in class. Not sure if it was just hormonal or the stress...whatever the case, I did it. Blubbering idiot. I had a test in the same class that I failed the first test. I just needed to do better. In nursing school you must make a C or better to go onto the next class. I just started thinking about "what if I didn't pass?" It would be such a huge waste of time and energy, and embarrassing on top of it all. I was taking the test, which are all multiple choice and I just couldn't comprehend the questions. I read them, would read them again and then go onto the next question if I didn't know. Well, after I had answered all the questions I was sure about, then went back to see which ones I had narrowed down to 2 answers, I started panicking!!!. If I missed even half of the questions I wasn't sure about I would fail again! I just couldn't take it!. I was the last one to turn in my test.

The teacher graded them and when she came back in she said, " you did it!, thumbs up, you can tell your son you passed". I couldn't believe it. I made a 93. Higher than the average. The 3 questions I missed were ones I changed, which they had told me before the test not to do,to go with what you think, especially on critical thinking questions. I CAN do this. I CAN.

I'm continuing my work schedule the best I can, trying not to think about it too much. Coming into work at 3-4 am and working, going to school, then going home to take care of the house, kids then study. I got my first post school paycheck. It was a mere 745$, but all the insurance came out. I have 4 months left in this first semester, than a bit of a break to play catch up at work.

This weekend we are having Ilin's Birthday party. Ilin's dad called and said he was coming but of course offered nothing $$$ wise. I am going to try to not think about that. I do have to work tomorrow morning then I will get to Ilin's party at 215-530 then cross my fingers taht I have made enough hourly time.

talk to you soon.
m

347 am...it's early

My God!!! I'm tired. The coffee does not seem to work anymore. First, let me give you the rundown on why I came in at 250 am this morning.

At about 150 am the dog started growling, which I knew was because Olive was coming into the bedroom. I heard this, "Mommy, I threw up in my bed". Lovely. Not just throw up but, like the Excorcist, literally, because we had Split Pea soup for dinner. yuk. So, as Dad asked how much throw up, then turned over and went back to sleep, Olive and I had to get in the shower, wash hair, brush teeth and get cleaned up. At that point I decided to get dressed and come to work. I tucked her into bed with Dad and cleaned the sheets off her bed, did the laundry and cleaned up the rest of the bed, gathered my stuff and headed to work. Here I am.

I have a test today and I am pretty nervous, but I did study, I read the info,went over the notes and I think I am ready. I have to do well!!!

I guess I should get to work, I will write later.