Self care, yup....I'm really horrible at it. Actually I hate it. As someone once told me, it is probably because I feel that I don't deserve it. Which is pretty accurate. With that said, I made an appointment with a private trainer....well 12 appointments. I will inevitably have to show some accountability to myself for 12 times ....maybe at that point it will become a habit...bwahahahaha
OI showed up and he was waiting with bells on. After a short interview of health history, work history , schedule, medications, basic knowledge....my heart finally settled down enough to pay attention. " Why the fuck am I so nervous?" I thought to myself. He's here to make me healthier, stronger, and whatever else a 52 year old lady can accomplish. We talked about my goals. 1. My ass is not fitting into my 25 year old jeans anymore. 2. I'd like to feel stronger. 3. Healthier. 4. Body fat lower.
"Great start", he said....."Let's go hop on the scale and the body fat evaluator".
We had already discussed my scan from 2.5 years ago. Body fat was around 22% which I would like to be below. I step on the scale thing. Really how does this thing work? How can it tell my body fat from me stepping on the scale then putting my arms out and thumbs on a button? seems a bit iffy to me.
Whatever, I'll go with it. it said I weighed 117# with 44% muscle and 29% body fat.
Dont even wat to know what the other 27% is...(beer? Anger? French bread?)
FATTY
I'm obese. which surprised me. well not obese, but what we would call skinny fat at this point.
The Commander said, "It's perfectly doable, to get you down to under 21%....it will take longer than 6 weeks, but you can do it"
On that note...we started our pre workout evaluation.
Deadlifts, planks, squats, pushups, barbell presses, lunges core, row machine, TRX and some crazy ab thing with the stability ball called " the triple threat".
By the end of the first session I decided Cody ( Commander) and I were no longer friends.
He commended me on my deadlift form so that was good.
Other than that
I hate myself for having signed up AND PAID for 12 expensive private sessions.
Commander and I have another date for an hour session on Friday.
I'm 52
All the women at work, young and old get Botox and filler....
I refuse.
Facials and Lash extensions
(this is what happens when the Dr you work for owns an aesthetics/plastic center connected to your surgery center.
DISCOUNTS DISCOUNTS DISCOUNTS
I refuse.
I swear I will age ( duh)
I'm not fighting it....
But I will keep my body and heart as healthy as possible.
I'm typing this as I drink a Vodka in bed.
So, Friday it is....
Workout #2
I'm pretty sure anger is not going to drive me to be more productive....
They, whoever they is, claim that selfcare is really important
ya know....you can't take care of others if you don't take care of yourself.
So, with that said, me and my extra 10 pounds, YES 10 pounds !!! decided to seriously get back to something....anything...and I'm easily influenced....so when my run keeper decided I should train for a marathon I clicked "ok".
Not my smartest moment.
I'm on week 2 (just started)
today was a slow 2 mile run.
I chose the bike path which was infested with these weird mosquito, flying silverfish things.
Pretty sure I ate about 30.
Here is one I hacked up about 2 hours post run.
It was stuck to my Uvula.
I'm vegetarian, this is not a good breakfast for me.
yuk
This was part of my view.
Very lovely, but did not make the 2 miles anymore enjoyable
and here is how I gelt
SLOW
Will it ever come back?
I don't know.
But I do know I want to stay on track for a while with making a commitment to myself and keeping it.
