did you know ....? a flock of crows is called a Murder ? creepy...
ok enough trivia
How and when did it happen? Where did it fall on the timeline of life?
That I may not be marry-able any more.
It's a sad realization.
I was very flattered today when a nurse at work pulled me aside and asked me if I was seeing anyone...or married.
"uuuuhhhmmmm, yes and no...but yes"
~nervous smile from nurse and a question mark~
"well, you see I'm with someone...but we aren't married, but we might as well be. you know, it's been a long time and such...no, he hasn't married me."
~What's wrong with the guy?...or aren't you marriage material? (he smiles)
~I mean you look like a good catch to me~
Please hold, nurse guy, while I contemplate the hole you just shot into my heart by asking me if I was not marriage material, shithead.
but I am still flattered, because that is the kind of gal I am.
So I thought about it. Bobby did hint towards marriage when we first met. Just as men are supposed to do. 6 months in...perfect timing. I screeched NOOOOO, due to horrible divorce. I stated I would never ever marry again...ever.
The law abiding citizen, known as Mr Smith, followed that law and never said a word about it again. He bought a ring...and stated it was a friendship ring.
Years went by.
We had Olive.
We bought a house.
We had huge fights.
We had vacations.
We lost family members.
We had ups and downs.
He never asked again.
Ever.
Is it because he gets the milk for free?
I started thinking I want it now.
Maybe for security?
Maybe for reassurance for my middle age body.
But I'm no longer marriage material.
It would be silly. What we we do...have a wedding and ask for a plate service?
Whatever the case. I aways consider myself married. Its a common-law, which makes me sound trailer parkish. Nice.
If we split up we WOULD have to divorce, which makes me want a wedding even more...because that shit pisses me off.
I want you guys to know
that I am marry able...or was.
and girls...go for the wedding...
or you may regret it later...
as you contemplate why you never got married.