I'm watching this silly show on Hulu called Shrill.
There is a part of the show where they are camping, and she cant pee outside....so, he says
" How about if I pee here with you?"
it works, and if this isn't one of those weird silly things you do when falling in love, then what is it?
Watching people fall in love....well, it just melts me. I'm a sucker for love....
With that said ,
the Gym is slowing easing into my heart. Not like ooey gooey love, but more like..."Ok, I'm feeling ya deadlifts....I'm ready for you box squats". Like easing into a love where you weren't super sure but it grows on you....and it's not bad.
I'm on week 3 and I'm learning a little bit... not only about what I can do, even when I don't want to....but a little bit about finding my quiet inner peace in which I fight with constantly.
My mind never stops....it counts steps, bites, it solves math problems while driving, and then.....
out of the blue....it shuts down, usually while I am driving home from work, and I start to doze.
WHILE DRIVING...
I digress
the gym....I'm finding that once I get past the front door, with my workout instructions in hand my mind starts to calm.
5 sets, 12 reps,
brain says....you can do it...push... then check it off your list.
My mind says, Girl, you are strong, and every time you show up, you are a better person for your self.
Truth.
It's a bit of new found inner peace...
I have to slow down, I have to plan self care even though in my head, at the end of a 12 hour shift I say, " Im tired, I can't today...." Then I remember my promise to myself.
Start Do Finish
And with this new inner peace, I have found a bit of sleep. A tiny bite of respite.
This post is a bit of a nonsense post...
but hey...
Write ya later,
m