Older Should be Better....Right?

I know some of you follow me on IG.  

I'm just a friend of many.  I try to say it like it is, which is often pretty realistic (such as the fact I took a selfie with no makeup, in my dirty 1970's kitchen) Lord knows I am never gonna be an influencer like that!!!  That shit is real and when you work full time, try to stay healthy, have a teenager (OMG that shit will kill you), and bizarre family dynamics you just do what you do to get through the hour, the day, the month , and the year....and pray it doesn't go too fast that you miss out.

I wanna talk about Older, Smarter, Better....

me .....older and still mastering the other 2.

I'll be 50 in a few weeks and I am starting, finally, to get it....to just plain old understand how the stuff I tended to worry about, really doesn't matter.  I think of all the times my mom said to me as a teen, "Stop being such a drama queen, that shit won't matter by next week!" 

She was so correct (as usual).

I can officially say I am older now.  I like it.  It doesn't bother me too much.  

I feel wiser, because I am wiser. 

This does NOT mean I don't struggle everyday with getting up and taking care of myself in a way which will keep me moving into the next 10 years.  

If there is one thing I want to say to you....it's not too late to start taking care of yourself.

If you are overweight, go get a physical and start slow. You don't need to join a gym (unless you want to)....just go walk. listen to a book or podcast and walk. Cut out Sodas and add in water. It's these little things which can keep you off medications and feeling better. 

you do no one any favors if you are not healthy or taking care of your skin suit.

Lift some weights.  You need to strengthen your muscles and your core.  

You are going to need it for balance, believe it or not. 

Hell, I fell UP the stairs at work the other day and I can guarantee if I was not as strong/healthy as I am right now I would have broken my leg, hip , or even worse cracked my head.   But I caught my dumbass , cracking my shin, and spilling my coffee...20 pounds heavier, it would not have been good.

Smarter?

I'm not sure.  My best advice...keep reading, listen to one book, read one book and keep a list on a site like GoodReads.  It's nice to know that you accomplish things even if you don't remember what the hell you have read or done.

I have Alzheimer's in my family .... so I try to keep my brain moving.  I try new things and I don't buy into that bullshit that I can't change, or I am too old.

With that said ....last year, or so, I did try an aerial ribbon dance class and that was the first time that I thought,

"For fuck's sake , Myssi, you are too old for this ribbon hanging stuff"

But I completed the class, and was horrible, but laughed a lot and got kudos for being the oldest in the class.

Better?

This is easy.... 

We know more now, so do better.  Maybe Oprah said that or something ...But she is damn right.  There is no excuse as a grown adult to be a dick.

People need kindness and empathy, so now that you are moving up Maslow's Heirarchy 

be kind, be better....reach that Nirvana.

It's pretty simple.   

Volunteer , offer a nice word, tell someone they are beautiful, encourage a person to move up and forward....

just do good things....you will feel better.  

Even if you get nothing back, because honestly, as an adult what do you really need?, you get those amazing Karma points that most of us blew through in our shitty 20's.

I'm no guru.  My life , if you read my posts ,has been a circle of weird times, confused love, horrible body image, bad hair, and one time I even tried to wax my own hooha....

But I can honestly say I am smarter now....better.....and I will never ever try to wax myself again.

That shit is for the pros.

now go out for a walk and do good things

write ya later

xo

m

           

I run so that I can drink....the truth of the 46 yr old female

Let me tell you something.... I love my body.... I'm 46 years old, and that is closer to 50 than 40... Although at our age, 40 is irrelevant too.    I'm small.  I'm 5' and under 114#.   But I work at it.   I run. I work out ( occasionally)   I have a fear of gaining weight,  middle age weight,  fuck you.    I hear you.... I hear you saying, " you will never be big ".  Well let me tell you something.   I enjoy eating.   I run so that I can drink beer.  Every time I run, I look at calories burned and drink and eat accordingly.    Up to this date I have friends whom have never ever seen me eat solid food.  

 I stood in front of the mirror yesterday and said ....word  for word,    "I look ok...my boobs are saggy, my nipples are probably too big due to breast feeding, my tummy is still pretty sexy, my labia not as pert as it once was.....but all in all.... When Walmart compared....nice. "

So I listen to my middle aged friends, male,   Talking about women.....their wives.  Etc....  Wtf?   Do we talk about the men like that?   We love a rock hard big penised man....but we also love a soft big belly man.....penis or no penis.   Are they nice?   awesome...funny?  better yet...I'll take Him!

I'll never understand  my mentality that I'm not ok....
Why am I not ok?
This, of course is the big hoopla of Cindy Crawford.. Super model   48 years old, no photo retouch
gorgeous....I agreee.... she has a lot going for her without the photo retouch

very nice.... 

this is me

46.5 years old... 2 big fat kids and absolutely no photo retouch or good lighting

no photo retouch

46 years old.

I criticize myself every day.and I'm not some sort of gym rat....

this is just a few push ups, and a run around the block three times a week

am I happy    ??

no

does my husband think I'm Cindy Crawford?

No

does he look at other woman

yes.

It's just our own mentality.

this is what this 46 year old looks like.....

I may not be the norm...

but this is it.

Ive had 2 very large kids and I'm 5' tall

it is what it is.

I'm not ashamed, but I want you to know I do work at eating healthy and satying active.

But this does not make me happy

I want you ro know what I hate.  
 judge and talk amongst our friends .... its ok.  tell me too.
I hate the way my boobs sag.  I hate that my nipples are too big.
My vagina.... I had two almost 10# kids, ....my vagina adjusted, I did not....
chin hair?   oh please... it sucks.  
but my calves?   they are nice....
my abs?   not bad...I'm guessing genetics.
but still
at 46.5........ i'm still uneasey

compare and feel the strength. 

 fuck it

Me and , well, just me

Try to make it good….do good….be good.

We can do this 

:)

this is me.  I dont take very many pics of myself, but because of the new hair, I went for it.

I always look so big in pics.  Actually I'm 5 foot tall.  This new hair added 7 inches.

The Gknight ride for Oskar Blues in Longmont.  I got a bit dressed up.

Any way, thought I would just let you know I am still alive.

I'm getting older by the minute and apparently nothing can slow down time….

Not even a great big albino afro

365 days, look a shoulder

Sorry for the non makeup look but I have a shoulder.  Barely.

But that thing poppin there, it's an actual muscle, and with the correct lighting it would look great.

There is also a bicep but with the pasty skin it just doesn't POP like it should.  

I'm not trying to be super woman here, I'm just trying to show you the 40's aren't so bad.

Jillian Michaels and I have an understanding in my basement.

I show up for the 30 minutes and try not to quit and she will continue to tell me, "you can do ANYTHING for one minute"  which I scoff at and call her a C#*@, and continue to carry on.

Because feasibly, you really should be able to do anything for one minute, and even though I am all by myself, except for Eddie, in the basement…I don't want Jillian or Eddie to think I'm a quitter.

I also want to acknowledge that I had a wine last night at bday dinner and then at knitting the night before….so, now I have to start my clean slate over…it's not quitting it's just a hitch in my giddy up …and for the record, my giddy up is a little saggy so the hitch doesn't always hitch properly.  

But it's pretty good…trying to sober up all alone, with Jillian yelling at me, a sick kid, a teen boy who is shedding like a malamute in Georgia heat, and a husband who has taken up space on the couch and the garage.

It's all good.

It's allllll good

xo,

m

Ps spread the word…

40 is hot, and not in a cougar kinda way…

In a smart, I've been there kind a way.

The 40's rock, just earlier…and usually on the couch

P90x week 2 day 2 Plyometrics

Plyometrics...jump training.  Feet off the ground for what seems like an eternity.  I believe the actual workout is 50 minutes.  The clock starts at 58 minutes but you have 8 minutes of warm up, which is even hard to me!  Pitiful

I want people to know there are adjustments to the jump moves.  

you CAN jump a bit lower, lower impact.

you can touch toes in the middle of a turn, kind of step through it.

I guess the important part is finding what works for you with out breaking your knee caps off.  The main goal...keep moving!!!

Each set is repeated 2 times which to me is a total Mind F*@k.  Just when I think I hate it enough, he says, "now we are going to repeat those 3 moves!"  

F%$@ YOU!!!!!

but I do it anyway.

Because secretly I like being told what to do.

I'm done with that, and later I will do a 5k run and the ab workout.

(hopefully)

For breakfast I made my healthy, filling, concoction of :

Fage Greek Yogurt 0% 15g protein (6 oz)

added 1T natural Peanut Butter

1T ground flaxseed

a drizzle of agave

I would have added some fruit

but all out.

It's really filling and healthy, holds me over til lunch

This is also day 5 without drinking!

I feel pretty good, my cocktail hand is just a bit lonely.

It seems to have figured put even though I out my seltzer water in a wine glass or martini glass, it's not the same.

Ok...off to dye my hair and get on with my day.

Have a good one

Write ya later...

do something today!

m