Life is great . You roll like a pro for a while then life smacks you in the face , just so that you know how good you have it. It is literally heart breaking.
People like to say, you don't understand... you don't get it. Let me tell you something , I get it.
People suck . When you are a strong person it surprises others as to why you are so mistrusting. Or why you need to talk shit out all the time....why you need support, not financial etc....but a bit of emotional support. As a strong woman, I am not fucking stupid. I am not passive. I grew up the baby sister of 8 older brothers. They did not put up with my shit and they taught me not to put up with other's shit. Is this a plus?
fuck no.
I trust no one.
I expect everyone to talk shit out and on top of that , honestly?...I expect almost every male, to fuck me over in the long run....so far I'm right (short of maybe one). It sucks...because I continuously look for the good, but men can't handle strong, smart women. They waiver. They think it's awesome at first then they go out and look for a woman who will not question, will keep quiet and won't challenge. I'm not into that. I need a MAN. a man who can give support, talk, and let me know they can be in charge if needed, yet step aside and let me be me.
See this guy? do you know him? well I do.
This is my Nephew , Brady Graves. read about him here.
This is family....he's not the only black sheep in my family. I come from a family of strong ass woman and these narcissistic men. You know what we do? we feel guilty and take care of them . We support them and become enablers.
Brady served his time,(prison, parole, etc.) he's not an idiot. He graduated the top of his class at the Academy and went into the Marines at the highest level. You know what else he did? he started smoking meth. He blamed it basically on the women in his life. It's heart breaking.
Don't tell me I don't understand.
Don't tell me I ask too many questions or that I tell it like it is.
We support, we love , we are passionate, we take them in, we pay , .....
we are idiots.
This guy, above, he's on the wrong path again. He blames everyone except the one who made the decision to smoke meth....even blaming the beautiful sister who has supported him from prison to rehab.
He's a victim.....bullshit.
He's a grown man making shit ass poor decisions and blaming everyone else.
I know many people won't ever get it. But when you grow up around men who are weak, men who lie, cheat and steal ,then blame the mothers , daughters, and lovers in their lives ....us daughters, wives and lovers grow up bitch ass hard and hard as hell to love. We are appealing on the outside then as soon as you get close you back away. We ask questions....we trust too much until we don't, and we want emotional support.
There are not many men who can stand up to that....or to a seemingly normal family which has it's seedy underside. lately, I find men weak ....with lack of ability to have compassion or to love outside their circle. they are often so self centered it is repulsive.
A man who says "I need my own stuff ....I don't know what to say....I can't support you emotionally" is not a man you want as a lover, boyfriend or spouse....They will never connect outside their personal space.
It's unfortunate.
write ya later
write ya later
m
The closest way to a woman is to touch her brain, her emotions, her thoughts.
Talk, Listen.... question and think together
Talk, Listen.... question and think together
It's better than sex.....dope soul.
ps: and don't smoke meth....
meth never turns out good
Unfortunately. watch for my nephew in the news again.....its; only a matter of time
