Friday, March 27, 2020

scared.........shitless just make dinner



(personal)

Tell me........
 is this a sign.  is this what I need to hear
the few days we spend 24/7 you are .....
well....
Maybe you?
swat my hand 

"get out of here, myssi"
"Do what you do"

unfortunately ,I have no where real to go ....
maybe that is the catch....

as you just said.  maybe that is the way it needs to  be....
 "I do every thing for you...."
Is that to make me feel?.....
something
or to remember how it was....
you....
cunt....
bitch....
you...you........
(just look it up..... everyone knows)

do what you do....live your best life....
 get out...
plenty of people to pick up the pieces. 
Lined up

have you once thought....
yeah

if that was what I wanted I would.

"live your best life, myssi.... go on.....I'll just hang out here"

I'm not here to fix anybody....
I'm no longer here to have anyone fix me....
I am actually good...sad ,but ok
I AM strong
but that does not mean.........
nevermind....
Keep pushing
Keep talking.....
keep.....
talking

at some point you need to listen
to 
what 
you
are
saying....
listen

have I said?


anything


all the things
you have said.
if you are scared 
shitless


then
say 

stop opening the door
for
me 
to
leave..................





I will.


xo,
m



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