Gardening Down Below

ya know....

there are certain body parts which don't get the recognition they should from me.

I just realized the other day that my vagina, vajajay, hootchie, peach, etc does not get the love it so rightly deserves .

go read some stories about falling back in love with your parts

at The Vulva Gallery

I had a Doctors appointment and , like going to the beach, I said "let's make sure the garden is tidy"

I spend time on a daily basis, cleaning and shaving around the edges etc...but I don't always go all out.

What's the point?  It's just me and it really is not like someone might come along and say ...."hey, let me critique your edging" Although it would be gladly appreciated if someone did come along and want to critique in a nice manner....

So, as I showered I teetered on one leg, lathered and shaved carefully around all the parts. front to back.... 

It brought me back to my younger years when I helped the girls at the Gold Club in Atlanta shave their tweens where they could not reach or see and we would laugh and make literal 

"smart ass remarks" ...

Those were the weird old days and how I got that job for that short amount of time I cannot even remember.

As I shaved my tween, I thought....I think I might like someone to do this for me, yet I'm not willing to go get anything waxed (way too personal)...so fancy razor and me , myself and , I it is.

When one shaves delicate areas there is a lot of yoga poses and balancing acts....

bending and hand play to get everything smooth.

The back end is harder still because the area is not so forgiving.

The final part is a nice little haircut on the front.

I have embraced hair.

I used to shave it all or leave little parts but I have since decided I like some fur....

although my fur is straight and that has always bothered me, maybe someone had commented one time?

who knows,

but I have let it grow but keep it short.

and occasionally I shave it because I, personally like the smooth feeling...

especially after a shower shave and baby oil.

women are often extremely sensitive to the looks of their lady parts down there. 

What is normal?

Why is it this way and her's is that way?

Porn only shows nice little "girl like" ones

This is so traumatizing to some women that they have taken to cutting there labias off to please the other sex's visual choice.

I don't think I have ever heard a man say...

"I'm gonna get my penis reconstructed because the ones I see on TV are huge and look like a PBR tall boy"

never....nope never

My finished manicured garden looked lovely and I was pretty sure the doctor would appreciate.

doctors appointment was a different story

all is good 

take care of your garden, and manicure that lawn anyway that makes YOU happy

Because, I think most people who enter your garden are just grateful they were invited to the garden

make sense?

love ya...

write ya later,

xo,

m

Oh man....whatever...Nothing....

and ....it hits home, this song.....

Nothing Compares 2 U

Pick your poison.....

Take a few....

go read the lyrics

and just the other night....

Miss Cray Cray made beautiful music again

It's been seven hours and thirteen days

Since u took your love away

I go out every night and sleep all day

Since u took your love away

Since u been gone I can do whatever I want

I can see whomever I choose

I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant

But nothing

I said nothing can take away these blues,

'Cause nothing compares

Nothing compares 2 u

It's been so lonely without u here

I'm like a bird without a song

Nothing can stop this lonely tears from fallin'

Tell me baby where did I go wrong

I can put my arms around every girl I see

But they'd only remind me of you

I went to the doctor guess what he told me

Guess what he told me

He said boy u'd better try to have fun

No matter what u do

But he's a fool

'Cause nothing compares

Nothing compares 2 u

All the flowers that u planted mama

In the back-yard

All died when u went away

I know that living with me baby was sometimes hard

But I'm willing to give it another try

'Cause nothing compares

Nothing compares 2 u

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

nothing else,

I get it,

write ya later,

xo,

m

Destination Keanu and Winona...and my life intersection

As with any shitty breakup comes lots of liquor, friends requiring you to put on clothes, cookie dough, and shitty movies.....lots of shitty romantic comedies and slasher films.

Being doomed is the dangled carrot of my future.

I flipped through the movies....

click click click.

Keanu....if you can go through the second part of your life looking like the poor man's version of the Wolverine, I can surely go braless, sit around in my undies scraping cookie dough off the plastic while drinking high end grapefruit vodka.....every day if I want.

as I clicked ....I saw the perfectly shitty movie I would fill my nightly schedule with.

yeah....whoopie

Destination Wedding.

yup.....

Definitely no Sleepless in Seattle, but yet I found myself laughing and nodding and perfectly relating this sleeper into my true life.  

Keanu and Winona....

the charisma was there....

2 people who should have never met, yet do.  Pessimists in love and yet they fit so perfectly

"why didn't we meet 7 years ago Frank?"

"Luck I guess"

ha....

Hits so close to home.  How you can meet someone and have chemistry, but each is so oddly off that the connection is hidden.

Until it isn't. 

Sitting in bed eating Pringles and watching a movie....

arguing about correct pronunciations....

fucking and laughing....

and wondering

"where have you been all this time?"

This perfect scene with her and her flannel pajamas .....

me....so me.

The next scene he describes how beautiful she is, from her dress, to her ankles....

then she tells him how perfect he is....

right down to his straight penis....

I love this....

my quirky self relates to these scenes, because they have happened.

who knows...

this movie

Destination Wedding 

perfect for the non believers full of snark and lack of sex....

It made me laugh.

Things happen as they should in the time frame that they should

sometimes you have to look and say....

I like you, you weirdo

well if you have a free night and some vodka and a side of cookie dough

go for it....

it's kind of funny

and Keanu and Winona are the prefect bantering mismatched match.

it's a sleeper.

xo,

write ya later

m

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Day 247: Keep On Truckin

Day 247

Sweet Foxxy Brown 

The View 

Lovely

this is what I try to replay over and over again.

Keep on Truckin

remember :

to eat real food.

don't stay at work just so you have a place to be

get dressed (have not been successful)

run/exercise 

neither vodka or watermelon constitute as a meal

be kind and don't resort to mean words

heart open even when sad

get out and do things alone

it's ok

and let your friends help you

I'm looking at apartments Friday

he has asked me to go to parallel counseling and I feel like I must, because he may need it.

and if I can help him feel better about everything then I can just worry about myself.

They always say to not send people out with more baggage than when they arrived.

I think I have added wasted years and exorbanant baggage to his person.

I never meant to

I know in the back of my mind it will be ok, either way it turns out.

I also realize that I may not be capable of safely loving again.

self worth, 

body image, 

and

the words that have been said to me the last month have made me see myself from the other's perspective and I realized that I carry some pretty shitty traits.

so, 

keep on truckin

xo,

write ya later,

m