Sage That Shit

 Or at least Fabuloso it.

I woke up this morning and said,

 "up...get up. clean this house and life, sage that shit outta here. 

You have an amazing family that needs you,

Let's perk up and 

Live"

so....

up I am,

cleaning, jamming out to top 40, crying a bit and laughing a bit.

I sometimes laugh at the fact so many things have happened in the last year, yet things continue to move forward. As they should.

It's my absolute favorite time of year, 

Spring

new beginnings....

and I am going to cherish it

I comically started cleaning and as I cleaned I thought I should probably start thinking about making nice nice with some of the people who pushed me to the side during the divorce.

Last thing I want to do is continue to carry anger around

I texted a few of the people who really hurt my heart.

Pretty sure they have not been thinking much about me,

yet I still think about them.

stupid empath qualities.

We did get invited to our first party since the divorce by old friends

and then

one of the couple got Covid

I wondered if it was really covid or the fact I was invited....

but that is the exact negative nelly shit I'm trying to avoid.

I'm clearing my list day by day.

Might be easier to bomb the list but it's something I need to do.

As the house fills with the smell of Fabuloso

I am starting to feel better.

I wish I could hug and kiss a few people I really miss

I wish I could get in a car and drive away for a few hours and think

I wish I could travel a bit more (which I may make happen regardless)

I wish people would stop by a bit more 

and I hope this cleaning helps it all feel nice and new

new. 

that's where we are right now today

starting this little journey new

xo

write ya later 

m

and yes,

new days 

new experiences

new feelings and

it's going to be ok

more postitive vibes

m

Gardening Down Below

ya know....

there are certain body parts which don't get the recognition they should from me.

I just realized the other day that my vagina, vajajay, hootchie, peach, etc does not get the love it so rightly deserves .

go read some stories about falling back in love with your parts

at The Vulva Gallery

I had a Doctors appointment and , like going to the beach, I said "let's make sure the garden is tidy"

I spend time on a daily basis, cleaning and shaving around the edges etc...but I don't always go all out.

What's the point?  It's just me and it really is not like someone might come along and say ...."hey, let me critique your edging" Although it would be gladly appreciated if someone did come along and want to critique in a nice manner....

So, as I showered I teetered on one leg, lathered and shaved carefully around all the parts. front to back.... 

It brought me back to my younger years when I helped the girls at the Gold Club in Atlanta shave their tweens where they could not reach or see and we would laugh and make literal 

"smart ass remarks" ...

Those were the weird old days and how I got that job for that short amount of time I cannot even remember.

As I shaved my tween, I thought....I think I might like someone to do this for me, yet I'm not willing to go get anything waxed (way too personal)...so fancy razor and me , myself and , I it is.

When one shaves delicate areas there is a lot of yoga poses and balancing acts....

bending and hand play to get everything smooth.

The back end is harder still because the area is not so forgiving.

The final part is a nice little haircut on the front.

I have embraced hair.

I used to shave it all or leave little parts but I have since decided I like some fur....

although my fur is straight and that has always bothered me, maybe someone had commented one time?

who knows,

but I have let it grow but keep it short.

and occasionally I shave it because I, personally like the smooth feeling...

especially after a shower shave and baby oil.

women are often extremely sensitive to the looks of their lady parts down there. 

What is normal?

Why is it this way and her's is that way?

Porn only shows nice little "girl like" ones

This is so traumatizing to some women that they have taken to cutting there labias off to please the other sex's visual choice.

I don't think I have ever heard a man say...

"I'm gonna get my penis reconstructed because the ones I see on TV are huge and look like a PBR tall boy"

never....nope never

My finished manicured garden looked lovely and I was pretty sure the doctor would appreciate.

doctors appointment was a different story

all is good 

take care of your garden, and manicure that lawn anyway that makes YOU happy

Because, I think most people who enter your garden are just grateful they were invited to the garden

make sense?

love ya...

write ya later,

xo,

m

365 days : I run so you don't have to

you are welcome...

Today I ran so you don't have to.

I would like you to know we did NOT run far, so don't worry

Foxxy and I ran 2. 2 miles 

Then she gave up...

Looked at me as if the heat was going to be the death of her....

I looked at her and said, 

"Don't worry, I gotta poop....so we are both done"

She panted home the last mile and I concentrated on not having to go poo.

It's a runners thing.

maybe it's just my thing.

Anyways, I did minimal thinking on my run, which was nice.

A couple of times I thought...

wow, my legs feel pretty good and I'm gonna chalk that up to doing nothing for the past week or so.

I'm calling it my recovery drink and eat week....

and scroll through Instagram and then feel shitty for doing nothing all week, week.

pretty much a good week in my book.

As you can see from my picture I am carb loading for the mere fact I can.  

This was the first time in a while I looked at myself in the mirror and thought

you look good.

you are in a good spot.  

Looks good on you 

50 is good

....

well, don't look at that part, ignore that part....

and ignore that toenail that fell off from running yesterday

but everything else....

good job, lady

Sometimes, a good break from everything really pays off

I noticed it has made the house feel better.

Me, just doing what I want and not fretting.

the vibe is good.

did you hear that?

I gotta good vibe goin on.

2 days from now I will be relaxing in my bikini, giving an additional zero fucks, wishing I could tan, as I slather on the 50 block...

Wishing I could hold my liquor better,

and wishing I looked more put together....

but all that....

that is NOTHING.

Lately,

Ive literally been rocking this shit.

so, go relax...

I all ready ran, 

If ya wanna carb load, go ahead,

because we good 

xo,

write ya later